Hey Y’all! Since the holidays get all crazy, we decided that this will be the last post of 2016. Which means I’m gonna take a look back over the year and give you an overall.
2016 was a building year for me because 2015 kicked the crap outta me. My personal life was at an all time low because of the death of my dog, Chester. It shoved me into a depression that I didn’t recognize until a friend let me know that I wasn’t myself. I made an appointment with my doctor, she asked me some questions, I cried and went on anti-depressants. They helped immensely.
I walked during that period to get away from my empty house. Like I’m talking’ Forest Gump style. I walked so much that I damaged my foot. Well, the walking and then the drinking and eating to excess helped it along. All of that took a toll on my body and I went on a year and half long journey to try to fix myself. That journey included 2 pairs of orthotics, a chiropractor, a naturopath and finally and osteopath but I’m finally fixed! Hurray!
My band got back together to play a gig for a friend that was dying of cancer. First off, it meant that I had to lose 25 pounds in order to fit back into my costumes. And I did it! It also meant that we gave a night of joy to a friend that has since passed. Death is starting to encroach a little too much on my sunny life. I suppose it’s something I’ve got to try to get used to but I’m not sure that’s possible. I don’t want anyone or anything I know to die. Ever. Now my parents are starting to get up there so I spend more time than I should crying about losing them. I’ve just decided to spend more time with them so I don’t have any regrets but I like them so it’s quite fun hanging out with them.
I also own a small business which can be an awesome thing or a huge pain in the ass thing. For the past couple of years, it was definitely a pain in the ass super stressful thing. I had to make a decision about whether I was going to do a whole lot of hustling and trying to figure out how to diversify or cut bait and quit. I leaned in. It was really hard and really scary. But I think we’ve made it out of the bleak hole that we were plunging into it. I’m proud of that. The fact that there’s no one there to give you an “atta boy” is something that sucks about owning your own business. You have to try to stand back and take in the positive. I’m working on it but that’s a hard thing to do for yourself.
In the next year, I’ve got someone that is really close to me and she is moving out of town and I’m selfishly dreading it. I don’t like change and I’m going to miss her a whole lot. I’m trying to prepare for it and know that we’ll keep in touch but there is going to be a friend sized hole in my life and I’m not quite sure how I’m going to fill it.
I feel like 2017 is going to be a continuation of the uphill battle because I’m not quite there yet. I’m going to continue to climb out of the hole that my business was in. Out of the depression that I was in. Out of the negative yuck that has been hanging over my head. I’m on the way up now. I’ve started to sing when I’m alone again. Life feels like it has purpose. Things are definitely getting better.
Short and I are going to change up the blog a little bit next year. We’re still going to go do fun things because that’s why we started blogging in the first place. But we’re also going to go beyond that and get a little more personal. Stay tuned because I know you’re gonna love the changes.
In the meantime, have a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! Every day is a clean slate and you’ve just got to figure out what you want to write on it. New Year’s Day is the grandaddy of them all but I’m not going to worry about making resolutions this year. I’m just going to keep on climbing.